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Last Login: 11/09/2009 1:33 pm

Gender: Female

Birthday: 05/28

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Kankuro_Sunagakure 11/07/2009 7:21 pm: Wow, I'm so bored that I'm back here? Heh....well, you seem to be on more often than I am, the whole become friends through facebook is a nuisance though. I would've sent you a text message, but you don't have your phone. You're away for this weekend, and it's harder for me to survive than I ever could've imagined. So now I sit on the fraying ends of my sanity, waiting for your return. Waiting for you, once again in my arms, like I always will be every second that you're not there. Each day that I can't talk to you, I grow numb. Each minute I don't hear your voice, my heart beats slower. Each hour that I don't know you're okay, I begin to panic more and more. Each week that we're together, makes me long for another 2 for us to stay that way. Each time I hear you're in pain, and there's nothing I can do about it, I lose another shred of my quickly fading sanity. Each time we hug, I slowly get that piece of sanity back. Each time we kiss, it brings life to me again. And for every second that you're not in my arms, holding my hand, kissing me, or staring into my eyes as deeply as I stare into yours, I die again.
Angelic_Black 10/21/2009 1:03 pm: tks and talk to you later
Angelic_Black 10/21/2009 12:47 pm: im great, haven't been on Facebook in like ever lol. and i'm at my bf's every weekend but i bring my computer at least lol. Job searching, no luck though...
Angelic_Black 10/21/2009 12:37 pm: heya
Closed On Sunday 09/20/2009 10:13 am: lmao xD yus facebook can do that to you
Closed On Sunday 09/18/2009 1:56 pm: Visit my new contest thread? :3 Link
xxMumeixx 09/14/2009 4:40 pm: Eh, I gtg for now. See u later.^_^
xxMumeixx 09/14/2009 4:21 pm: I'm glad ur relationship is still so strong with all tht happening, it's really amazing I think. I always admire stuff like that.

Eh, I'm doing ok. I just moved into a new place with my mom and lil sisters, and my cat, lol. It's nice. I saw my bf over the weekend. My mom is ok with him, but my father isn't that much... it pisses me off the things he comments about, but I can't make a scene or something or my mom will get upset. He's not around much anyways, just once in awhile he comes over.
xxMumeixx 09/14/2009 4:03 pm: Ur playlist is awesome.
Eh, how've u been lately?
ll Death Awaits ll 09/08/2009 3:43 pm: Hehe lol

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I know. My page sucks. I really dont care. I cant design web pages to save my life. I'm a fan of any and all vampires. Werewolves are okay as long as they don't bother me. Some of you should know that the background I chose is from the Phantom of the Opera. It must make you all warm and fuzzy inside. Whoopdi frigging do. Just so you know... I can be evil and I can be good. Which side I'm on depends greatly upon my mood and with whom I am friends with. So dont tick me off.
oh...here's a little on my life story...

when i was little i had a hole in my heart, my lungs collapsed, and i had no immune system which was why i was deathly ill during all of this. the doctors fixed up my lungs real nice, but they screwed sumthin up with my heart and i flatlined. they revived me after their third use of shockpads. They finished the job and they put me into a three month drug-induced coma. After the coma, i was sent home with an oxygen tank and an IV. The IV was my main source of nutrients at the time as part of the "recovery process" that the doctors put me on. Soon enough, they took away the IV and kept me on the oxygen tank for a few more months. Then i was up and about healthier than i had been before, but not quite normal. I continued to grow up with various health problems ranging from ear infections to fevers of 105 (degrees fahrenheit). Now, however, im told that they doctors dont know if the hole in my heart stayed shut. If it didnt stay shut, i get to go through hell all over again...yay...more needles.

I have an undying fear of needles for some reason and when i have to get shots...it usually ends with claw marks in whatever piece of furniture im sitting on or it ends with a bunch of nurses holding me down...nowadays i rarely have to be held down, but their furniture suffers. Im also a hater of hospitals...heh...cant imagine why.

So this all led to me being suicidal aside from some things that happened at school with preps. My suicidal tendencies have only led to me jumping out my window five times...all of which were unsuccessful and nothing was broken. After all of these occurrences, i have been through hell enough with friends who are now enemies and enemies who are now friends. Ive also been trying to find my purpose in life...which...as of right now...is to keep those i care for happy.

I have been unsuccessful in my quest for an illustrator for my books ive been writing. Had my friend drawn them, they would have become a hentai series, but she refused to draw for me even though she told me to write a story for her to illustrate. I did what she asked of me and now i have no illustrator and no editor. So if anyone thinks they can draw pretty damn good, im lookin for an illustrator...mainly one with experience in drawing manga, but whatever i can get works just as long as its good. i have an editor but im not sure if i can keep in touch with them...so i might be in need of an editor as well.

Thats pretty much so my life story for u.