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yo my name is andrew my friends call me andy all my friends are lame and cool like me but they say im not from earth because i do crazy things and im to funny i fill like my life is fadeing away my mom is some where i cant reach and im nothing am i nothing i see i dont no my life any more am i nothing i just dont no any more i live in darkness till some one can light my dark heart once again but tell then i live life in the darkest deap of what should be my mories tanted with the darkness of my life hopefully only till i find my path of my life the path i choose i know this path all to well i've walked on it day by day. i've hoped to find someone on it but always i found someone i always thought i could always love. the one i seeked isn't on this path that i trod. insted they are in another land, a land to far to even comprehend. i've lived on hope and hope alone but this hope was always false, it brought me nothing but endless chaos. now i walk a new path, a path that i can follow a path that can lead me to my promise land. i know i'll find something there one day or maybe the next. also i know someone will be there waiting for me to take me by my hand. this is the path i choose now and i know it will never let me down. Oblivion losing sight on what i seek i plundge into the darkness. all my hopes and all my dreams falling onto deadly things. life so rich yet also poor, all of my gifts burst into flames. loseing control i go mad with the disease that conqures all my skin. murder, violance, deaths i do all to pleasure my insanaty. like a cold with endless spreads i kill, kill,kill. my mind is mad my heart is dark i do not know where to turn. lost in chaos i don't know why but i still want to find my light. bleeding from my hands i fall into the ground. weeping like a child im lost, confused,and sad. what i did in the past is all underground and dead. bury me six under i don't disurve to live. troding in land pointless and usless. someone shoot me, someome end oh please just let it finish. this is the finaly time that i will look you in the eye. madness of the heart deep with in my heart you can find the eternal darkness. deep inside you can see the demons that control my body. all of my hopes all of my dreams are just lies. i will never escape the deadly madness that i live in. why must i suffer so much sarrow. all i have done was pointless and unwanted so why do i still walk on earth. must i suffer through these trials? must i live in a world that hates me so? should i continue to trod? should i continue to fall? giving up my live sounds so great right now but i can not die. i have nothing to live for except so much pain. i can see nothing but black and a small amount of light would make me blind. so many words so many thoughts why can't it all just end today. boredom sitting here with nothing to do will drive me insane. all things that i love not here all i have is a lonely coumputer screen. music, pictures, and typing all are confusing me. my love is somewhere, my friends in another place which is unknown. madness, lonelyness, and a heart that is alone is feeling i always have. i must find away around my problems but they seem to be bigger than i. my eyes bleed, my body stops, im lost in a pool of both light and dark creating a chaos that is unstopable. i can not take such things any longer im on the path of death but for unknown causes it is clean like a clear day with the lovely sun beaming on my face. for the rest Find out for your self if you want to