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Until your distress sleeps.....
So my charity is closed now- what a chore.
Now that that huge burden has been taken off my shoulders, I find myself quickly slipping back into the ways of my true self- no longer having to put up a front for the people iin the charity and trying to be overly optimistic and happy, but rather depressed, angsty, and withdrawn, like I've been for as long as I can remember. I don't necessarily like it, but it's who I am.
And with that return of my old self, I've been wondering if i should quit Gaia; a lot of things- people especially, tick me off, and s**t's just been going downhill for me- though I have no willpower, and just might be back within a week or two- damn you Gaia for being addicting.
I stayed up late last night thinking about it while sketching my newest OC, an emo grl named Ageha who's a demon butterfly, and the self proclaimed queen of a shadowy, desolate place in the middle of nowhere (ya, the chara's very much like me- who cares?) ¬_¬ When I finally fell asleep, I had reoccuring dreams (nightmares?) about my constant insecurities/ indecisiveness and fluxuating changes of mind and mood, and walking through Gaia only to find people taking stuff out my house and packing it all into moving vans! O_O Which, I suppose can connect to my handing out passwords to charity and my own personal mules, to allow people to claim the items they want...
*sigh* And Now that my journal will no longer be spammed with useless charity stuff, I can finally get back to - this......Fill me up with your grief
 SilvermisTea · Sun Apr 12, 2009 @ 05:51pm · 0 Comments |
