I've been an a nasty funk for a while no, and just can't seem to shake it. My self-esteem is plummetting, and depression has settled in and shows no signs of leaving for a whine now. >_> I feel ignored, worthless, and like my opinion isn't worth two cents, both on the web and in RL. Starved for attention,
I've turned to spamming the s**t out of a lot of forums I hang out in, creating different topics of discussion in hopes to get at least at least one person to notice me, if only for a few minutes. *sigh*
Also, what's adding to the depression is me abaolute failue to progress even the slightest bit on thee novel I'm working to complete. *rips out her hair* Added with the fact that my dead cat is still at the forefront of my mind.
My two closest friends have stopped talking to me, one has stopped sending me IM's for some odd reason, I fear I may have upset her- the other seems to have stopped and drifted away just recently, now only using me (IMO) as a wallet to collect her Gaia gold. ;_;
The time I spend working hard on my art only for someone to come along and say it sucks, depresses me- along with the fact that half the deviations I submit aren't even commented on, after putting so many hours into them. ;_;
It's so lovely being ******** ignored- don't know why I'm stupid enough to even try to change soemthing that's been constant since I was in grade scool.
*sigh*
Like hell anyone's going to read this- just needed an outlet. ;_;
 SilvermisTea · Sun May 10, 2009 @ 06:06am · 1 Comments |
