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llo everybody, whoever reads it, this one is dedicated to someone very special, im gonna be talking about things that have been going through my head, and what's going on.
DREAMS, HEART, DESTINY
Hm, i am a person that lives in a privileged family, never needed to struggle for anything; the cultural additions that many members of my family made to me, helped to create a man that knows the basics about what's going on; know 3 languages fluently by 17, which would make my career be successful if i put enough effort on it' traveled around the world during my whole life and done many things that thousands of people would love to have the chance to do. All that i have, that others want to, that others want to steal from me, those things are all worthless... worthless, but wait, it’s a lot of money there, how is it not worthy? Well, the emotional value is way more important to some people, than material values; sadly, in the doomed world in which we live, the majority of the people just want to step on others to get to the top, well, some of the people in the worst living conditions imaginable, have more things with emotional value than i do....
it is something i realized the other day, i have many things i may need, but the most important thing for me, it’s something that can’t be reached by my inexperienced hands, because the only thing i want... is love, and i found that person, but again, damn to the fact that i travel around, i met her, but she is so far away that my life is pointless, to the point that i would do anything and sacrifice anything in order to reach her and hold her, that day, would be the happiest day of my life, but not an ordinary kind of happiness, this one would the most sincere and real sign of affection and love, the day i actually can touch her soft skin and hold her close to me, making me feel in home, making me feel like nothing matters anymore.
That day, the one I wait with so much anxiety, will come soon, and for once I would have accomplished what my heart is demanding me, finding THE girl, the person who would be at my side, no matter what, the person who would hold me and give me a shoulder to lean on, when my body is falling into pieces, the one that with silence, will be able to communicate with me and make me feel like I am somewhere I know.
Every day and night, whenever I have some free time, I think about her, and how we would be together, and the rest of the time, I just talk to her… talk to her, became my number one activity of everyday, we must talk at each other, at least once a day, so we can sleep patiently, sleeping is not easy anymore, it makes me feel good, and sleepless.
I don’t know how this soulless body could have lived for so long, without having anyone to fill in any space, done wrong things right because of the wrong things that kept me away from reasoning, but this person, put me back to reason, I she knows who I am talking about.
…All I want to do is being able to share moments with her without feeling the comouters between us, be able to find the real happiness and fullness of my empty body, and once I reach my goal, I wont let her go, I wont let her go away from me, no more…. No more…
I really don’t know what to say at this point, I am shedding tears after every word I write… just… I love you….
 havaloko · Wed Nov 25, 2009 @ 05:35am · 0 Comments |
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