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Maybe I'm just being blond.

I haven't edited my multimedia in my profile for a very long time, and wanted to do that a minute ago. But, for the life of me, I can not find where it is anymore!

Help please?

This happened to me last march, and I recently thought of an explanation of it, but I want to know if it is valid.

A little background; I am a very very heavy sleeper, and this is well known by people around me. Also, doctors from past tests that I have had think I could have a mild form of epilepsy, but this is up for question. I was also under some stress at the time this happened.

Anyway, last march, I was hanging out in my friend’s room, nothing out of the ordinary. We were just chatting, and telling jokes. It wasn't like I was bored or anything, but I lied down on my friend bed, they said "oh he fell asleep, now we will have to carry him back to his room, great! *sigh*" even though I herd this, I did not respond, I just didn't feel like it. They ignored me for a while then started to poke me, I still did not move. I waited a minute after this then I sat up and walked over to the other bed. I felt as if I was in a fog, it was strange. I didn't really feel like talking. They asked me if I was ok, I just grunted and stared off into space, letting my eyes go out of focus. Then I flopped over and collapsed on the bed. One of my friends who was there is a nursing major, and was concerned. My face began "twitching" it felt like it was involuntary, and voluntary at the same time. It would just happen; on its own, if I "let it go" it is somewhat hard to explain. She got my RA and had her make sure I was ok. When my RA came in, she poked and shook me, but I just did not respond. It was as if I was watching a movie of myself. I knew what was happening, I knew I was doing, and what I was doing was wrong, but it felt "easier" just to go with what was going on. It did not feel like I lost will power. I quickly sat up and walked in to the hallway, back towards my room, I collapsed on the floor, laid there for a few moments, got up, then slumped on the wall. My RA looked me in the eyes and asked if I was ok and if anything was wrong. I hollowly said, "I... don't know..." then nodded off narcoleptictly. What is strange is I have very little visual memories of what was going on, I remember all the sounds, touches, and feelings, but no visual. I would in about minute intervals go from being "conscience" to "unconsicance". When I was "conscence", I would respond very little with words. They eventually called the paramedics and they looked at me. They could not figure out what was wrong with me. When I would "nod off" they applied an extreme amount of pressure to my chest to arouse me, it was extraordinarily painful, and I found the next day that I had a very black bruise where they applied it. Yet, I did not flinch, and I normally am a weakling to pain. They eventually take me away in an ambulance, I was still responding the same way. The nurse in the ambulance tested me by checking my eyes and lifting my arm and dropping it when I was "unconscince." I remember her saying my pupils were dilated, and arm drift was somewhat positive. Once I got to the hospital, they put me in ER. Someone came to talk to me, and all the sudden I came back to reality. I suddenly was acting normally thinking, "Why on earth did I do this?" I knew what I did was terribly wrong so I kept it under wraps. The hospital did not know what was wrong with me, they took a catscan and MRI of my brain, and of course, nothing showed up.

I still do not know why I did this. I was full aware of my actions. I knew at any moment, I could stop what I was doing, but I didn't. It was like I was "Detached" and watching something else control me, and it was just "easier" to go along with it. It felt like I was in a fog, like I wasn't all there. I have never had anything like this happen to me as well.

The reason I think this might have been a form of auto-hypnosis, (if that is the right term), is because the on time I was hypnotized (and I went under super easy), this felt extremely similar to it.

What do you make of this?

what are the odds of that?

So, I sorta need to know this.

With the prospect of a loan market "freeze", will I still be able to get external private loans for college? My parents cosign and they have perfect credit (I don't know the score but I do know its about as good as good can be), and I get the loans from sallie mae.

Thanks.

I see minimal as introspective.

That is self explanitory.

By all accounts, I should not like them, but I do. In particular, the song Courtship Dating.

Go to the site of any college or university and look up what research is being conducted there. Garuntee you will find something that way.