How do I stop from being SUICIDAL?!

[Denkou Soshiatae]

(As posted in my blog)
And she did. She found the perfect boy, named Seth that she is in love with him and he was in love with her.
But she also found something scarey, something that she wished she had never had and never will have.
Suicidal thouhgts.
Lot's of them, and reason's why too.

She had nothing to live for.
She knows that in time everyone would get over it, even if they said they wouldn't.
She had no goals.
And she had nothing to look forward to.
As much as she wished that it wasn't true,
because it showed to the world just what type of person she was,
But the only thing that she thought was possibably keeing her heart beating was
Lust.
Dirty, terrible, teen hormone ridden Lust.
She couldn't get the thoughts out of her head, and they had been increasing
In both frequency and ferocity.
She didn't know what to do.
She DOESN"T know what to do.
But she doesn't want to live
And she doesn't know why she is still alive.
And those exact words keep ringing in her head.
She deosn't wan tto be alive.
She doesn't want to be alive.









She would talk to her mom about it, but her mothing would iether go all out and take her to an instition, or she would say that Jasmin was just over reacting, that she needed to calm down.
So Jasmin didn't--DOESN"T-- know what to do.
Should she tell someone?
Should she keep it to herself?
She is considering showing some obvious signs of suicidalness, such as constantly studying the suicide posters at school, and projecting the symptoms they talk about.

She wants to get it done and overwith.
Because she has nothing to live for anymore.
She has nothing to live for anymore.
She has nothing to live for anymore.

[Heal the World]

Did you actually have a question or issue? We can't sit here and read 3rd person poems. Please ask directly what it is you want.

[Denkou Soshiatae]

I want to stop wishing I could put a ******** gun to my head!

[Heal the World]

Denkou Soshiatae

I want to stop wishing I could put a ******** gun to my head!

Therapy works wonders. It sounds like you need a bunch of that. And not making everything seem worse than it is in your own head couldn't hurt either. Teenagers have a serious habit of putting WAY too much into so little. A break up is not the end of the world, someone teasing you isn't the end of the world, life and when it gets difficult is just that, it's life. It's going to be hard sometimes. DEAL with it.

[Abject Object]

Do you even own a gun dear angst filled teenager?

[iAethereality]

I don't understand why sometimes people say that have nothing to live for. If people wanted to commit sucide, they would commit sucide. I don't know how much help you can get online other than you need to try and stay motivated.

How old are you?

[Denkou Soshiatae]

No I don't own a gun.

And I'm not some bratty melodramatic teenager who wants to kill her self because "her boyfriend Johny dumped her" or something like that.
It didn't even have anything to do with a brake up.
I have been thinking for QUITE A WHILE why i even keep myself up on my feet. When I was still close to him, someone that i looked up to told me that none of this was really, but I took it the wronge way. What i hear was "This is all pointless"
TO be honest, what IS the point. All we do is get up, do some crap that either maeks us happy or sad, then we go back to sleep and wltz with or subconcious.
I used to LOVE life and I was finally hoping that my life would start to be happy, and then for some reason when one SMALL thing happened, something that i thougt was no big deal and that I thouhgt I would get over, I started questioning EVERYTHING to a basically unhealthy extent.
I have always told myself that I was jsut being melodramatic, or that it would pass, or that those weren't y tru feelings, untill the words
"I don't wan tto be alive" actually registered in my head, and then i knew that I should really try to do something.


I guess I should have known beter then to put this up. I almos tneve rget good advice becuase people are so bias against teenagers these days.
Pople are always saying that nothing is a bog deal anymore, as if us teenagers have lost the ability to have REAL issue. We haven't.

[Gentlesquid]

Denkou Soshiatae

And I'm not some bratty melodramatic teenager

Coulda fooled me.

[Denkou Soshiatae]

iAethereality

I don't understand why sometimes people say that have nothing to live for. If people wanted to commit sucide, they would commit sucide. I don't know how much help you can get online other than you need to try and stay motivated.

How old are you?

We say that we have nothing to live for because we can't think of an actually tangable thing that makes us want to stay, but to be honest we don't want to go, we want someone to comfort us and tell us that it's alright. We want and need someone to tell us that it's okay, and tell us how to make it feel better.
Kill ourselves isn;t tho goal.
KJilling ourselves is what we see as the only thing left next to suffering, after LOOSING all of our goals

I'm 14, as if that will suport my arguement that teenagers like me should be taken seriously on this topic.

[Denkou Soshiatae]

xXBigBossSquidXx

Denkou Soshiatae

And I'm not some bratty melodramatic teenager

Coulda fooled me.

Gee thanks, that's jsut what i need right now.
You are excactly the kind of person I'm talking about.
I don't need comments from poeple like you, I need comments from people interested in helping me.

[Heal the World]

Denkou Soshiatae

No I don't own a gun.

And I'm not some bratty melodramatic teenager who wants to kill her self because "her boyfriend Johny dumped her" or something like that.
It didn't even have anything to do with a brake up.
I have been thinking for QUITE A WHILE why i even keep myself up on my feet. When I was still close to him, someone that i looked up to told me that none of this was really, but I took it the wronge way. What i hear was "This is all pointless"
TO be honest, what IS the point. All we do is get up, do some crap that either maeks us happy or sad, then we go back to sleep and wltz with or subconcious.
I used to LOVE life and I was finally hoping that my life would start to be happy, and then for some reason when one SMALL thing happened, something that i thougt was no big deal and that I thouhgt I would get over, I started questioning EVERYTHING to a basically unhealthy extent.
I have always told myself that I was jsut being melodramatic, or that it would pass, or that those weren't y tru feelings, untill the words
"I don't wan tto be alive" actually registered in my head, and then i knew that I should really try to do something.


I guess I should have known beter then to put this up. I almos tneve rget good advice becuase people are so bias against teenagers these days.
Pople are always saying that nothing is a bog deal anymore, as if us teenagers have lost the ability to have REAL issue. We haven't.

Oh STOP IT. Seriously. Just stop it. You have TOLD yourself, over and over, "There is no reason to be alive." and you've convinced yourself of it.

What is the point to life? You make your point. Yeah. You are born, you live, you die. You make your life what you want while you are alive. You ARE being a bratty melodramatic teenager, wanting to kill yourself because you think life has no point. Life is not about finding one single point, there is no one single point. You create what you want, you make it what you want.

Suicide is horrible and selfish, and by being SO into it, you are being bratty. You have an entire family who loves you, friends who love you, and taking yourself out of this world because you don't feel like fighting for a better life is so self centered.

Life is not that hard. It's not as bad as you think it is, but you've convinced yourself it is. People are starving all over the world, don't have a crumb to eat. You have a home, food, clothes, and a computer to play with; be HAPPY for what you have, appreciate it, and that within itself, knowing how much you really have, can start to improve things.

[iAethereality]

If you knew you would get this sort of answer on the net, why did you post it?

Honestly, don't take this the wrong way and I will be blunt. You are young and if whatever relationship you had is over, it's over. You'll meet someone someday and will make everything perfect. It just take time, effort, and patience. Something you gain with growing up.

This is why there is therapy or people at your school that will help you. You have to make the effort and not let depression or angst get you down each time. It is a two way street; either lay down in a hole or get up and find something in life again. That is why everyone always has something to live for.

[Denkou Soshiatae]

Heal the World

Denkou Soshiatae

No I don't own a gun.

And I'm not some bratty melodramatic teenager who wants to kill her self because "her boyfriend Johny dumped her" or something like that.
It didn't even have anything to do with a brake up.
I have been thinking for QUITE A WHILE why i even keep myself up on my feet. When I was still close to him, someone that i looked up to told me that none of this was really, but I took it the wronge way. What i hear was "This is all pointless"
TO be honest, what IS the point. All we do is get up, do some crap that either maeks us happy or sad, then we go back to sleep and wltz with or subconcious.
I used to LOVE life and I was finally hoping that my life would start to be happy, and then for some reason when one SMALL thing happened, something that i thougt was no big deal and that I thouhgt I would get over, I started questioning EVERYTHING to a basically unhealthy extent.
I have always told myself that I was jsut being melodramatic, or that it would pass, or that those weren't y tru feelings, untill the words
"I don't wan tto be alive" actually registered in my head, and then i knew that I should really try to do something.


I guess I should have known beter then to put this up. I almos tneve rget good advice becuase people are so bias against teenagers these days.
Pople are always saying that nothing is a bog deal anymore, as if us teenagers have lost the ability to have REAL issue. We haven't.

Oh STOP IT. Seriously. Just stop it. You have TOLD yourself, over and over, "There is no reason to be alive." and you've convinced yourself of it.

What is the point to life? You make your point. Yeah. You are born, you live, you die. You make your life what you want while you are alive. You ARE being a bratty melodramatic teenager, wanting to kill yourself because you think life has no point. Life is not about finding one single point, there is no one single point. You create what you want, you make it what you want.

Suicide is horrible and selfish, and by being SO into it, you are being bratty. You have an entire family who loves you, friends who love you, and taking yourself out of this world because you don't feel like fighting for a better life is so self centered.

Life is not that hard. It's not as bad as you think it is, but you've convinced yourself it is. People are starving all over the world, don't have a crumb to eat. You have a home, food, clothes, and a computer to play with; be HAPPY for what you have, appreciate it, and that within itself, knowing how much you really have, can start to improve things.

Everything except bratty I agree with.
I'm not asking for advice on how to kill myself, and I'm not posting this to get out to the world that i have 3 weeks to live or whatever, I'm posting this because I want someone to tell me how to NOT be suicidal. Hence the title.
And beleive it or not, your post DID make me feel better.

[Heal the World]

Denkou Soshiatae

iAethereality

I don't understand why sometimes people say that have nothing to live for. If people wanted to commit sucide, they would commit sucide. I don't know how much help you can get online other than you need to try and stay motivated.

How old are you?

We say that we have nothing to live for because we can't think of an actually tangable thing that makes us want to stay, but to be honest we don't want to go, we want someone to comfort us and tell us that it's alright. We want and need someone to tell us that it's okay, and tell us how to make it feel better.
Kill ourselves isn;t tho goal.
KJilling ourselves is what we see as the only thing left next to suffering, after LOOSING all of our goals

I'm 14, as if that will suport my arguement that teenagers like me should be taken seriously on this topic.

You are 14. You are a kid. And life is not easy right now. But it's not so bad that you need to KILL YOURSELF. That is way more serious than I think you understand. From someone who is now 22, and was once 14, yeah--life was not easy. I was suicidal when I was your age. And now that I'm grown up and I look back on how I was at that age, thinking life was SO bad that I wanted to kill myself, I am ashamed of how silly was I being. Yeah, there was stuff going on in my life that wasn't easy to deal with, but NONE of it was bad enough to end my life over. I had a place to live, I had clothes, I had food to eat, and I had things to play with; I had it FAR better than most, and once I realized that, I found purpose.

[Denkou Soshiatae]

iAethereality

If you knew you would get this sort of answer on the net, why did you post it?

Honestly, don't take this the wrong way and I will be blunt. You are young and if whatever relationship you had is over, it's over. You'll meet someone someday and will make everything perfect. It just take time, effort, and patience. Something you gain with growing up.

This is why there is therapy or people at your school that will help you. You have to make the effort and not let depression or angst get you down each time. It is a two way street; either lay down in a hole or get up and find something in life again. That is why everyone always has something to live for.

Haven't I already said that this has nothing to do with a brake up?
Heartbrake doesn't equal a brake up.